so what Wednesday

so what if....

• it was my last day of work and i didn't say good bye to anyone? i don't like them that much anyway
• i dont want to pack my room yet. its my room and i will pack my stuff when i want to. i'm not ready yet.
• alllll of my clothes are on the floor. i have to pack them soon anyway.
• i despise rain. it doesn't mean everyone else has to. i hate the rain. don't tell me to like it. i have my reasons.
• im excited to wear my new rain boots. even though that means i have to suffer through the rain.
• i gave people free ice cream at random times during the day. i have been a very good employee and i felt like being nice to people. 
• i have worn the same socks three days in a row. i take showers. my feet are clean.
• i have an excessive amount of shoes. i like them. 
• i have a trillion scarves. i need to warm and look cute in idaho don't i??
• i never make my bed. i am the one who has to sleep in it.
• i wake up at nine every morning. it means not having to deal with the brothers. its nice waking up to a quiet house.
• i love babies. don't call me weird. they are cute and they cant yell profanities at you for doing something wrong.
• i hate card games played by old people. they are boring and pointless.
• not everyone gets christmas cookies this year. i am tired of baking them.
• i dont want to drive for two hours with my mom and grandma to see relatives i don't even like. they live in Bakersfield. enough said.

Dear Christian.

I can not believe that you have come this far. You have done such amazing things with your life and in such a short time. I am so proud of you. Your mom told me last night that you are putting in your papers in four weeks and I am so happy for you. I find it absolutely amazing that you have gotten yourself to a place where you are able to do that so quickly. I know who you used to be and i compare that guy with who you are know and i see such a transformation its indescribable. I am so proud that you have come so far and have done so much to better yourself. I want you to know how proud i am to stand next to you sometimes. People used to see you as a screw up that was going nowhere in life and you have completely proved them wrong. You have so much drive and ambition and you are such an amazing person. i want you to know that i saw that when you in the pit. Thats why i was there and i will always be. i am so proud of the man you have become. You will be the best missionary this world has ever seen. You can do this. I cant wait to be standing in the red room and to see you open that big envelope and the smile on your face when you read where you are going. I cant wait to be standing in that airport when you get off that plane. i cant wait to see how you change and how you learn and grow. Im so proud to count you as family and to tell people that you are going on a mission. Love you. Kalli

Intentions

I had the best intentions when i started this blog.
That all went down the toilet.
I wish it hadn't.
I wish i would have posted everyday.
I wish i could look back on this in a few years and see where i was and where i am.
I feel a new years resolution coming on.
Post once a week.
Maybe more.
So here is my post for this week.


Not to much has happened. I turned eighteen. That was fun. I got an Iphone and I love it. I went skiing and max flew us up to her house. that was awesome.
I leave for school in three weeks. im excited. scared but excited. and i dont really know what i am scared of. i know i can handle the classes. i know i can make friends. i know the weather isnt that big of a deal. i guess im more afraid of not having my people with me. I have never not had them near me. so that will be scary but it will be ok. i know i can do it and i know it will be one of the best experiences of my life but its just so nerve racking knowing that i am going to be in a completely new place with new people and new friends and everything new. its time and i a am ready.
ready. set. go.